went umpiring yesterday for the first time since march for the ntl league.

....

felt like i was stepping into some foreign world.


a lot of the other cadet umpires have taken badging test, and most of them want to go on taking it. and the whole load of them are still playing, while im sticking out like some sore thumb. i barely even know the teams anymore, who's up and coming, and emerging. the connection kinda fizzed and died when i left it for hrmm, a few months. its pretty ironic since i spent four years fighting hard for a cca i wasnt even chosen for. sigh.

dont know whether to give up the umpiring or not. its a last connection to a world i left behind. we shall see though, when i go for pesta sukan. put together with the other cadets i know i am one notch below, and the license expires next year, when i have the a's.

so i dunno. it isnt possible to have the best of both worlds. either devote entirely ODAC and the outdoors, or cut out one chunk to spend on umpiring.

choose mel choose.

SIGH

Get there by candlelight